Wednesday, February 3, 2010

The Dark Side

So it has been one of those days....or several days, were despite all my efforts, my mood is dark. I am upset about Ethan's condition, and that doctors have not returned phone calls and emails so that I might get help with treatment options, I am upset with the doctors/nurses/hospital etc. that left him in this condition. I am upset that my own family is not here for me, and more supportive. I am upset that we are half a world away from my husband's family. I feel alone in this, despite the fact that my husband and children are all here loving me and supporting me. I have tried to distract myself from this mood by charitable service, attending church meetings, making treats with my daughter, making dinner for a friend who has not been feeling very well, trying to loose myself in my passions (sculpting, rabbits and gardening) but to no avail, so I am hoping that writing about it, might, in some small way help. Truly, I am thankful for the numerous blessing I have. I really need to kick this mood so that I can get on with things that need to be done, for myself, for my family and for our future.

1 comment:

  1. I will keep you in my prayers for sure. I am sorry you are feeling down, it is no fun. You are really doing the right things to help. Be patient. We really really really enjoyed having you and the children at church. We have really missed you there. Please keep coming. We love you